Conflicts

Apologies for the dry spell of posts, again. I'm back to making progress with my gains again, however. This morning, I tipped the scales at just under 275. A couple long-awaited progress photos have been posted to my Flickr page here.

I guess I'm just at a point that I wonder what direction to take this blog in, again. I've been blogging for just over four years now. In that time, I've consistently wobbled between a 'gaining advice' blog to a 'personal gaining journal/dairy'--sometimes due to my inability to gain, sometimes because I just don't have anything to talk about. And once again, I neither have the ideas for advice, nor the stomach to go on and on about my own progress at the moment.

Gaining is an innately selfish act. You're working solely to improve your appearance, against what everyone else believes to be what is 'good looking.' And, as with anything, attention is addicting. One of my biggest fears is becoming a egomaniac, and I started to really notice just how much I talk about myself. I would never talk about myself in person as much as I talk about myself on the web. Perhaps it's good that indulge in that every once in a while, but for some reason it rubs me the wrong way, right now.

This feeling, coupled with the amount of writing I do at my work now somewhat killed my motivation to post here for the moment. On top of that, all of this microblogging on Twitter and Grommr prevents any real ideas for posts to form. I've had several topics I wanted to discuss, but for the life of me I just can't remember them.

So, bear with me for a bit here, folks. I'll still be on Grommr and the like, I just need some time to think about the blog.