This time of year, all of the weight loss and gym membership ads flood television as everyone makes their annual pledge to lose weight. While some people do need to lose weight for their health, most of the resolutions are made because people are just unhappy with their weight.
For once, I'm not one of them. Right now, I'm so unbelievably happy with my body. For whatever reason, I've started gaining again and my confidence is blooming. I love looking down at my belly and swelling with pride at all the work I've put into it. With that pride and confidence, my goal of making 280 by May is looking more and more doable.
I'm hesitant to say I've officially hit 250 pounds, because my damned digital scale always reads 3 pounds lighter than my analog scale, but I'd say just this once it's worth ignoring that one, don't you think? In celebration, I'll finally be making another YouTube video for my timeline for this Sunday's update!
I've also noticed a lot more blogs popping up lately. It's great to see more people going for their goals. Hopefully next year will be a lot more productive for all of us! Thanks for reading and supporting me, and I'll see you next year.
New Year's Resolution
A Wonderful Present
Christmas at my parents' was thankfully pretty uneventful. Once again, the my sister's children took most of the attention away from me. This is good, considering I've actually gotten a bit bigger since the last time I saw them. I can't hide my belly as well anymore, even in the loose shirt I got to do just that (on the right there). I know they want to say something, but so far I've been able to avoid it.
Oh, yeah, you heard right: I gained weight!
I'm looking for all kinds of tricks and techniques to help put on weight faster, now that I've broken past a plateau and (more importantly) have some money to finance it. While I was in Louisville (my hometown) I discovered they opened a Vitamin Shoppe, so I picked up some more weight gain powder, and I've been supplementing my diet with Ensure Plus shakes. They're not very tasty, but a 350 calorie addition every day equals a pound every ten days. If you've got any tips, feel free to share.
Last but not least, don't think I forgot about your Christmas presents. I went shopping around after Christmas, looking for some of your requests. I couldn't find any Santa hats, but I remembered people asking for more tight clothes and an odd amount of requests for tighty-whities, so I combined the two! I took so many pictures, I couldn't narrow it down enough. So forgive the camera-whoring, and I hope you enjoy!
I'll be back on Wednesday for some New Years Resolutions. Happy Holidays!
Happy Holidays
By the skin of my teeth I passed my last exam and with the curve passed the class. This coming semester is my final one before graduation. I'm still trying my damnedest to get to 280 by that point. Hopefully this slow break will help me pack on some pounds.
After all of the stress of this past month, it will be nice to relax. Unfortunately, I have to go back to my parents (and my boyfriend to his...) for Christmas. After my big national test in Chicago and then studying my butt off for my finals, my brain is absolutely fried and all I want to do is be lazy for a while. While I love my family, I don't really spend as much time with them as they want me to. There's the usual family drama that comes with going home that centers typically around my sister. On top of that, the semester ended later than usual, and I have barely enough time to shop for gifts.
Speaking of Christmas, I wanted to do something sort of special for you guys for being so supportive. Unfortunately, with my brain being fried and things are so short-notice now that I couldn't think of anything. But, I'm willing to post something when I get home! So, feel free to suggest something. Photographs, drawings, stories... if there's something you want to see, I'd be glad to oblige.
And if you're feeling generous, my donation button over there is always working! I never get too much for Christmas, so any support or gift you can spare would mean the world to me. Merry Christmas!
Busy Times
This week is finals week at school, so unfortunately I haven't had time to think of a good post for today. I'm desperately trying to get through these tests and move on to my last semester. I am at risk for failing one of my poorly-chosen elective classes, so I'm doing whatever I can to make sure I do well on this last test.
In happier news though, I got a lovely surprise from a very generous reader in the form of my first donation! Money has been pretty tight since I lost my job, and this was a very touching gift. To celebrate (and as per his wishes), we did something we hadn't been able to afford to do in months: went out on a date. It was a very wonderful dinner out, and even more lucky was that we got a very attractive, very kind, very chubby bear for a waiter. The food was even better (surprisingly), and I ate every last bit of it. To give you all an idea of what I can eat in a sitting as of now, I had a steak and half-rack of ribs, cheesy mashed potatoes and onion rings on the side, three glasses of soda and a big piece of peanut butter pie for dessert.
I didn't think much of it at the time because it was all just so good, but I was unbelievably stuffed by the end. My boyfriend (and secretly our waiter... I wish) was rooting for me to finish the last piece of my dessert. I felt absolutely wonderful after that. I was so full, I couldn't see my feet as we walked back to the car. An absolutely wonderful feeling.
I also drew up something that I had been daydreaming about for a while. If you remember from a previous post, my lion character is basically an exaggeration of my own dreams. So you can imagine what he dreams about. I had been thinking about how people used to be fat just to show off their wealth. One thing lead to another, and I was drawing up an entire world like such, where the larger you were, the higher in the social hierarchy you resided. Naturally, the king would be the biggest of the big, representing the wealth of the entire nation. And also naturally, I'd kill to be the king of such a world. A friend and I are working on a story to go with this idea, so keep an eye out!
I always like to toy with the thought of impossibly large shapes. I daydream about weighing upwards of 400 or 500 pounds, so naturally my lion daydreams of things beyond physical possibility. I don't know if you guys are like me, but if there's such a thing as too big for any of you guys, I've probably crossed that line with this drawing.
Gaining Again
Sorry about not posting on Sunday, I was in the spectacularly frigid city of Chicago for the Japanese Language Proficiency Test. Despite traveling through two airports, spending the entire day at a college and coffee shops, I was without internet for the entire journey. The day-long trip was generally uneventful, but I'm finding out that I'm starting to outgrow my usual Canadair CRJ200. I can't squeeze my laptop between my gut and the seat in front of m
I'd been stuck at that wonderful-turn-dreadful weight since very early this year, and I couldn't be happier to have broken past it. My weight has been between 244 and 247 this past week or so and I think it's really starting to show. I was going to wait until Sunday to post, but my lovely boyfriend is really getting into the feeder mindset and cooked me up a massive stack of waffles for dinner, and I had to take some pictures of my bloated gut (and show of my new t-shirt. Y'get it?)
I've had such high self-esteem as of late, and I can probably put all the blame on this turn of events. I had almost forgotten how happy gaining weight makes me. I'll save better pictures and more thoughts for Sunday's post. Let's just hope it's a while before I hit the next wall!
