This time of year, all of the weight loss and gym membership ads flood television as everyone makes their annual pledge to lose weight. While some people do need to lose weight for their health, most of the resolutions are made because people are just unhappy with their weight.
For once, I'm not one of them. Right now, I'm so unbelievably happy with my body. For whatever reason, I've started gaining again and my confidence is blooming. I love looking down at my belly and swelling with pride at all the work I've put into it. With that pride and confidence, my goal of making 280 by May is looking more and more doable.
I'm hesitant to say I've officially hit 250 pounds, because my damned digital scale always reads 3 pounds lighter than my analog scale, but I'd say just this once it's worth ignoring that one, don't you think? In celebration, I'll finally be making another YouTube video for my timeline for this Sunday's update!
I've also noticed a lot more blogs popping up lately. It's great to see more people going for their goals. Hopefully next year will be a lot more productive for all of us! Thanks for reading and supporting me, and I'll see you next year.
New Year's Resolution
A Wonderful Present
Christmas at my parents' was thankfully pretty uneventful. Once again, the my sister's children took most of the attention away from me. This is good, considering I've actually gotten a bit bigger since the last time I saw them. I can't hide my belly as well anymore, even in the loose shirt I got to do just that (on the right there). I know they want to say something, but so far I've been able to avoid it.
Oh, yeah, you heard right: I gained weight!
I'm looking for all kinds of tricks and techniques to help put on weight faster, now that I've broken past a plateau and (more importantly) have some money to finance it. While I was in Louisville (my hometown) I discovered they opened a Vitamin Shoppe, so I picked up some more weight gain powder, and I've been supplementing my diet with Ensure Plus shakes. They're not very tasty, but a 350 calorie addition every day equals a pound every ten days. If you've got any tips, feel free to share.
Last but not least, don't think I forgot about your Christmas presents. I went shopping around after Christmas, looking for some of your requests. I couldn't find any Santa hats, but I remembered people asking for more tight clothes and an odd amount of requests for tighty-whities, so I combined the two! I took so many pictures, I couldn't narrow it down enough. So forgive the camera-whoring, and I hope you enjoy!
I'll be back on Wednesday for some New Years Resolutions. Happy Holidays!
Happy Holidays
By the skin of my teeth I passed my last exam and with the curve passed the class. This coming semester is my final one before graduation. I'm still trying my damnedest to get to 280 by that point. Hopefully this slow break will help me pack on some pounds.
After all of the stress of this past month, it will be nice to relax. Unfortunately, I have to go back to my parents (and my boyfriend to his...) for Christmas. After my big national test in Chicago and then studying my butt off for my finals, my brain is absolutely fried and all I want to do is be lazy for a while. While I love my family, I don't really spend as much time with them as they want me to. There's the usual family drama that comes with going home that centers typically around my sister. On top of that, the semester ended later than usual, and I have barely enough time to shop for gifts.
Speaking of Christmas, I wanted to do something sort of special for you guys for being so supportive. Unfortunately, with my brain being fried and things are so short-notice now that I couldn't think of anything. But, I'm willing to post something when I get home! So, feel free to suggest something. Photographs, drawings, stories... if there's something you want to see, I'd be glad to oblige.
And if you're feeling generous, my donation button over there is always working! I never get too much for Christmas, so any support or gift you can spare would mean the world to me. Merry Christmas!
Busy Times
This week is finals week at school, so unfortunately I haven't had time to think of a good post for today. I'm desperately trying to get through these tests and move on to my last semester. I am at risk for failing one of my poorly-chosen elective classes, so I'm doing whatever I can to make sure I do well on this last test.
In happier news though, I got a lovely surprise from a very generous reader in the form of my first donation! Money has been pretty tight since I lost my job, and this was a very touching gift. To celebrate (and as per his wishes), we did something we hadn't been able to afford to do in months: went out on a date. It was a very wonderful dinner out, and even more lucky was that we got a very attractive, very kind, very chubby bear for a waiter. The food was even better (surprisingly), and I ate every last bit of it. To give you all an idea of what I can eat in a sitting as of now, I had a steak and half-rack of ribs, cheesy mashed potatoes and onion rings on the side, three glasses of soda and a big piece of peanut butter pie for dessert.
I didn't think much of it at the time because it was all just so good, but I was unbelievably stuffed by the end. My boyfriend (and secretly our waiter... I wish) was rooting for me to finish the last piece of my dessert. I felt absolutely wonderful after that. I was so full, I couldn't see my feet as we walked back to the car. An absolutely wonderful feeling.
I also drew up something that I had been daydreaming about for a while. If you remember from a previous post, my lion character is basically an exaggeration of my own dreams. So you can imagine what he dreams about. I had been thinking about how people used to be fat just to show off their wealth. One thing lead to another, and I was drawing up an entire world like such, where the larger you were, the higher in the social hierarchy you resided. Naturally, the king would be the biggest of the big, representing the wealth of the entire nation. And also naturally, I'd kill to be the king of such a world. A friend and I are working on a story to go with this idea, so keep an eye out!
I always like to toy with the thought of impossibly large shapes. I daydream about weighing upwards of 400 or 500 pounds, so naturally my lion daydreams of things beyond physical possibility. I don't know if you guys are like me, but if there's such a thing as too big for any of you guys, I've probably crossed that line with this drawing.
Gaining Again
Sorry about not posting on Sunday, I was in the spectacularly frigid city of Chicago for the Japanese Language Proficiency Test. Despite traveling through two airports, spending the entire day at a college and coffee shops, I was without internet for the entire journey. The day-long trip was generally uneventful, but I'm finding out that I'm starting to outgrow my usual Canadair CRJ200. I can't squeeze my laptop between my gut and the seat in front of m
I'd been stuck at that wonderful-turn-dreadful weight since very early this year, and I couldn't be happier to have broken past it. My weight has been between 244 and 247 this past week or so and I think it's really starting to show. I was going to wait until Sunday to post, but my lovely boyfriend is really getting into the feeder mindset and cooked me up a massive stack of waffles for dinner, and I had to take some pictures of my bloated gut (and show of my new t-shirt. Y'get it?)
I've had such high self-esteem as of late, and I can probably put all the blame on this turn of events. I had almost forgotten how happy gaining weight makes me. I'll save better pictures and more thoughts for Sunday's post. Let's just hope it's a while before I hit the next wall!
A Thanks to You Readers
Lately I’ve just been so floored at the amount of contact I have gotten since starting this blog. When I first posted, I figured it would end up like the majority of blogs out there that get two or three posts and are then forgotten because of lack of attention. I figured because gaining was something everyone is able to do that I wouldn’t get too many readers, but it turns out I seem to be doing something pretty unusual.
I honestly had no idea of the affect my gaining weight would have. If you think about it, I’m doing something pretty selfish. I want to be fat and no one is going to stop me. Because of that, and the fact that being fat really isn’t anything special in today’s society, I expected to get very little support, but boy was I wrong. I have gotten hundreds of messages from people around the world wishing me luck and encouraging me to keep going. And I found that oftentimes it was because I’m doing something that they themselves wish they could do.
To you guys I say go for it! I don’t have the time to talk to everyone who contacts me, but without rambling like I usually do, here’s what I think: You may only have one life to live, don’t spend it wishing or wondering. There are risks and social stigma associated with what I’m doing, but it’s better to die with no regrets, don’t you think? You have to determine for yourself if the risks outweigh the benefits to having the body you want.
I am also glad that people are finding about the gainer community through this blog, and in turn are feeling unashamed or even proud of their size. To all the big guys out there, I hope you appreciate what you have! There is such a growing anti-fat sentiment in this country, it must be discouraging sometimes. I know people who have grown up thinking that they’ll never have an ideal body and sort of resided themselves to being unhappy with how they look. But please know that there are tons of people like me who truly envy what you have, and there are so many men out there, big and small, who find you immensely attractive. Everyone has the ideal body to someone, you just have to look!
And to everyone else, please don’t be shy to voice your comments or opinions! You guys are my biggest motivator, and I love to hear from you. The more support I get, the bigger I shall become.
In the spirit of this, I’m making an FAQ post below, so feel free to ask me any question you may have and I’ll continually update that post with answers.
FAQ
This post shall act as the gitbigger.com list of frequently asked questions! Here you can ask anything that might be on your mind (or you can email or contact me any way you wish), and I shall frequently check and update it, as well as add a link to it in the side navigation. So ask away! No question is too taboo, I guarantee you.
- Why are you gaining weight?
I had been skinny my whole life, but always desired to be bigger. I am gaining weight in addition to working out in order to shape my body into the biggest it can become. I have always loved big men and I want to become what I find attractive in a man. - When did you start and at what weight?
I started gaining weight (as in, started adding fat) in July of 2007. I was 175 pounds, though I consider my true starting weight to be 140, which was how much I weighed entering college and what I was throughout most of high school. - Why do you like fat men so much?
I have been trying to figure this out for a long time. I am beginning to think it is genetic, because for the longest time I have loved watching fat cartoons and padding (as early as the third grade or around age eight). I cannot really explain why I like them so much, but I do love big men of any form. - What is your goal weight?
It's hard to say if I have a 'goal' per se, but currently (and in retrospect this hasn't changed since the start) I am looking at 400 to 450 pounds. Men at that size are amazingly attractive to me. Currently though, this is probably as far as I'd go, but that may change. - Is it hard for you to gain weight?
It is very difficult for me to put on weight. I grew up generally preparing my own meals, and rarely ate more than two small meals a day. I had an amazingly fast metabolism that is just now slowing down. I have to eat a lot in a day which is difficult for me to remember to do, and oftentimes will see no change in my weight for months at a time. Lately I've constantly had the desire to eat, but the physical capacity is not yet there. - Have you experienced any negative health effects?
I have developed minor lactose intolerance, as well as some acid reflux when I sleep on my stomach. The two symptoms are probably related in some way. I do take heartburn medication and lactase supplements to ease this. - What do your friends and family think?
As far as I know, my family is unaware of my true goals. I have told them in the past that I am shooting for the "football linebacker look" (which is true, I just haven't told them that after that I'm aiming for the "ex-football linebacker look"). My parents are naturally concerned as that's what parents do, and my only sister generally compliments me on how I look. I have few local friends, but I get teased every so often. I don't mind, I would like to be the 'fat guy' anyway. - Are you 'out' to your family?
I am, I came out my second year of high school (age 16 or 17). - What size clothes do you wear and how often do you have to get new sizes?
Currently I wear size 42 to 44 pants, and Large size shirts. I started at size 32 pants and Small to Medium size shirts. As you can see, I've gone through a lot of pants but not as many shirts, so I generally wear cheap pants or shorts with elastic waistbands. - Do you still work out?
I do and I don't intend to stop any time soon. I intend to be the fattest gym rat you'll ever see. I have four different days of workouts, and I generally go to the gym three days a week.
